i'm stuck in limbo

i have nothing to say- yet... i spent 15 minutes trying to think of something to write about, but i couldn't do it. i think my only creative moments are when i'm actually around people rather than locked up in my house.

i am super bored though, i need a substantial change in my life, such as wearing black socks rather than white ones... or something. i'm not sure what needs to change, and any help i could get from anyone or someone would be great.

how do people change themselves? i need to learn that, i've been so bored today i've been pacing my house in indecision reading a few pages from 4 different books i got for christmas, but i grow tired of them quickly because i'm not in the mood for reading, but i'm not in the mood to go out either, because if i were to go out tonight i would either see a movie, go drink, play cards or slit my wrists in the bath tub... all of the above sound equally exciting. i think what i really need is a shot of adrenaline or a shot of life, but i don't have the energy for either of them.

i really wish zombies would attack, and that would force me to change it up a little, but not really as i'm already convinced zombies have attacked and i myself are one of them.