Drunk... Again

My best friend in Kanaskis was Brian... my boss. which is hilarious in many ways that i cannot explain, but i have nothing but utter respect for him as much as i slash at his dreams from under his feet.

Brian is 37+ ? yearold man with his degree in neuro-pyschology, but works as a food and beverage manager at a golf course. interestingly enough reminds me of myself and me vice versa in so many ways it is actually sad. sad in the respect that i will become him one day, and i am what he once was. another interesting tidbit for a person who defined hermit and loner in the first 3 months of my stay in kanaskis, would make it through his day by watching cnn... that's what he looked forward to after 12 hours of work, nothing more. which i find hilarious for an intellginet and logical person, i find this funny because cnn is hardly something anyone of intellegence would watch, unless witht he purpose of ritting their brain with something other than liqour. maybe he changed it up once and a while to give his liver a break... i may never know.

I always find it interesting when you can connect with such a person that you can say anything and not be judged... even if you are being profiled at the same time it's not the same as being judged. which, for example my last "fling" before i left for the summer never would have worked out, i never really acknowledged why it wouldn't have worked- but i did as of recent. i was constantly judged or evaluated in such a way i never would have felt comfortable explaining that the night before i got drunk and stoned and figured out the meaning of life but realized when i figured out the meaning of life i would forget the answer the following morning... which i did. but i would have got the squinty eyed "wtf are you talking about?" look from her...

Another thing i thought i might mention is i often find it easier talking to people twice my age than people my own age for two reasons:

1) they are more polite, and atleast have mastered how to pretend how to be interested in what you are talking about.

2) they are more comfortable with themselves and are usually not trying to potray themselves in a limiting light or image. because they don't give a fuck, if they don't go home to a bottle they go home to a wife and kids that they spend all their time with anyway and so they relaize they don't give a hsit what anyone else thinks. where as young people such as myself are constantly seeking validation for everything that we do.


anyway the reason i bring this all up is i just watched hitchhikers guide to the galaxy but more importantly i watched A Love Song for Bobby Long starring John Travolta & Scarlett Johansson.



It was in part about a professor befriending a student of his(who was also his best friend), and in another part understanding the meaning of life.... actually both movies focused on the meaning of life. but Bobby Long focused on the legacy and aftermath of life. much like 5 people you'll meeet in heaven you understand that everyone has an effect on your life and your existence has killed, saved and made life worth living for countless people just by existing... and nothing more.



I find it interesting


P.S. these posts have been sucking lately for 3 reasons