People Are Self Destructive by Nature
So the other day Matt and i were drving to Timmy Hortons where i discovered soemthing interesting... see i had always thought i had been somewhat self descrutive in nature and that it wasn't particularily normal. i often get this feeling that i figure most people wouldn't understand.
Matt: "do you ever get an urge while you are driving to crank the steering wheel and smash into a post just to see what would happen?"
Me: "Uhhhhh yeah i do... but i usually try to refrain from telling the passenger in my vehicle that i have a usdden urge to wrap my car around a pole"
Matt: heh, yeah i suppose, yeah that's crazy, and it's sometimes such an intense feeling where i just want to see what will happen. like i know that my car will be crushed, i will be dead, along with anyone else in the car, and the pole however will be unscatched but i just want to see if that will actually happen. just to see
Me: okay i think i'll walk
Matt: never!
See i too also have these urges to smash my car into parked vehicles more than poles, (poles are so far away fromt he road and rarely vary) vehicles on the other hand can vary in the damage they will do to me. like a honda civic would do very little damage to me, while a pinto would light up an entire city block.
you just never really know. like you know what generally happens but every case can be slightly different.
the worse feeling is when i'm standing in my mom's office building over-looking the open 9 storey balcony, i feel like i must throw my leg over the edge and jump down and see if i can catch a light or two or grab onto something and try to survive... on my inevitable way down. i usually have to hold onto the balcony bars and restrain myself from jumping just because it's soooo overpowering.
It's not that i'm suicidal but because i'm just curious, curiousity killed man more than it killed the cat. and i would be a perfect example of that cliche saying.
Feel free to admit that you too are a crazy son of a bitch and have thought about death out of curiousity.
Evan admitted he has thought baout it lots and now you can too!
that's just my random thought of the day
Matt: "do you ever get an urge while you are driving to crank the steering wheel and smash into a post just to see what would happen?"
Me: "Uhhhhh yeah i do... but i usually try to refrain from telling the passenger in my vehicle that i have a usdden urge to wrap my car around a pole"
Matt: heh, yeah i suppose, yeah that's crazy, and it's sometimes such an intense feeling where i just want to see what will happen. like i know that my car will be crushed, i will be dead, along with anyone else in the car, and the pole however will be unscatched but i just want to see if that will actually happen. just to see
Me: okay i think i'll walk
Matt: never!
See i too also have these urges to smash my car into parked vehicles more than poles, (poles are so far away fromt he road and rarely vary) vehicles on the other hand can vary in the damage they will do to me. like a honda civic would do very little damage to me, while a pinto would light up an entire city block.
you just never really know. like you know what generally happens but every case can be slightly different.
the worse feeling is when i'm standing in my mom's office building over-looking the open 9 storey balcony, i feel like i must throw my leg over the edge and jump down and see if i can catch a light or two or grab onto something and try to survive... on my inevitable way down. i usually have to hold onto the balcony bars and restrain myself from jumping just because it's soooo overpowering.
It's not that i'm suicidal but because i'm just curious, curiousity killed man more than it killed the cat. and i would be a perfect example of that cliche saying.
Feel free to admit that you too are a crazy son of a bitch and have thought about death out of curiousity.
Evan admitted he has thought baout it lots and now you can too!
that's just my random thought of the day
posted by Doc at
6:53 PM
3 Comments:
Yeah i must say that i too have had simular thoughts at times regarding the very same situations. however its good to know that im not suicidal and wont actually throw myself off of a balcony to in an attempt to see if i could actually pull shit off like they do in movies.
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Anonymous, at 7:38 PM
Matt who?
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joe, at 7:49 PM
naden
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Doc, at 12:55 AM
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